Living without religon while being black.

My father was a minister, my grandfather too. Booth my sisters are ordained ministers and my mother was a dedicated usher for 29 years at our church. Growing up in the church is a way of life in the African American community. Being an atheist is concerned worshipping the devil because a lot of black people are very judgemental and can't see past what they have already been brain washed to know. I grew up knowing the bible like the back of my hand. The more I knew the less I believed. When I was old enough to start asking questions without the ramifications of what my happened I did. I asked every person in the church who I felt had the answers to all the questions that were growing in my head and all I got the same answers, "Don't challenge the bible, trust it and you will find your way." HUH? That doesn't answer the question. They all said the same thing which made me come to the conclusion that they were doing what they were preaching which is trusting in believing in something nobody had any real proof that actually existed and if it did exist rather or not it happened the was we were reading about.

As I got older I started to notice something about the human nature. People tell you what they want you to know and how THEY want you to know it. Only thing is stopping a person from telling the truth is actual facts. Now I dd some self thinking and after Micheal Jackson passed away I looked at how they treated Micheal Jackson sort of like the new black Jesus. Think of Micheal Jackson like this................... Micheal Jackson was a very loved man. The bigger he grew in fame the more people started bringing scandals to his name. Like Jesus. There were a lot of people that followed Micheal despite the rumors. Like Jesus. When Micheal was getting prosecuted (crucifix) like Jesus people supported him till the end. Like Jesus. When Micheal died people prayed and prayed for it to be a hoax and not true. People got on Fb and Twitter shaming others who talked bad about him while he was alive. The whole world slowed up when Micheal passed away. Now imagine what would they say about Micheal 1,000 years and more from now. The would say he ws a great entertainer, a wonderful dancer, an innovator, a phiplatropist, a good father and maybe the best musical artist that we have seen of all time. Unfortunately the also have to mention his family history, his acquittal of sexual abuse and the millions of dollar's he put out to build a park to lure little boys in his home. If his fans aka "followers" had the power to erase all the bad things that would be said about him they would. Kind of like what Jesus followers did with him when they were writing the bible. They wrote and told us what they wanted us to know and nothing more. How am I told believe that?

I stumbled upon a documentary called "Religoulus" it's a film by Bill Maher the host of Politically Incorrect on HBO. He goes around the world and asking people from different religious background questions about there religion. Of course he gets shut out by just about everyone but I liked this documentary because it was a comedic spin on what I was going threw with my questions about god. It opened my eyes and sealed the deal on me admitting to myself and my family and friends that I'm a Atheists and happy and content being one. I was no longer living how I was being raised to and I was free. I actually lost two childhood friends because of it. They felt no need to still remain friends with someone who thought like I did. I'm sure Jesus would have done the same thing. De-friend me on Fb if he knew I didn't believe in his father. My family thinks it's a faze but they still love me and they aren't going anywhere.

I just try to live right. Make good decisions and let that be my guide. When I fear I shake it off. When I hope for something instead of praying I wish for the best and if it doesn't happen that I guess it wasn't meant to be. I work hard for what I want. Karma is my god. I get what I put out. Positive affirmations see me threw and I'm happier and my brain is healthier than it has ever been.